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Wear green for Iran.

LiveBlogging The Uprising, HuffPo.

kay is way the fuck more eloquent about it than me, LOOK AT THAT.

Someone should totally do PB icons of Princess Nuala.

...I say this like I don't already have 102 icons and no more spaces. What.

OH HELLO INTERNET fuck I never update here, do I! Well I was over here when I decided to update so. There you go. HELLO INTERNET.

anyway I AM HERE

to actually put my Theory About Louis Garrel somewhere other than in every IM in the world:

well he's kind of fucking weird looking, isn't he, but he's DECIDED that he is smoking hot and thus: everyone believes him. because his attitude is extremely convincing, let's face it. and the more you look at him the more attractive he is! basically he has put one over everybody and it's awesome. (summary: dele would hit it.)

also julian sands, oh my god. just...in general. GROW YOUR HAIR AGAIN JULIAN I LOVE YOU

*spaz*

also I love my photoshop when it makes me ~*MONAYS*~ ... or, well, lj gift certs, which are LIKE monays.

tl;dr this entry had no point, i'm just bored and thinking about attractive men i pb.

It is AMAZING to me how completely and utterly I fail at "bedtime" and "sleeping right" even when there actually IS something in it for me and I want to.

>:( AWAKE DELE IS AWAKE. Oh god I'm so bored. OTOH, I got the tags I'd been meaning to do done. Including one that I'm pretty sure I owed like...two days ago. O fux, I still haven't done my reaction posts. BYE GUYS.

I was totally going to bed.

But then I didn't.

So I guess this is another "stay up all day and go to bed earlier" night. For fuck's SAKE. How did I ever survive before medication regulated my sleeping? How was I sleeping like this and getting up in time to be at school on time -- getting praised for my promptness!

Wtf. SELF >:(

I AM SO BORED. It is ten past ten at night and everyone I talk to on the webbernets is asleeping or otherwise offline. This is totally unfair. :( so lonely.

Did get some lolarious threading with Karra done! Rodney McKay: HS Physics Teacher is thus far totally the funniest shit in the world. Also Nami is approved \o/ and Ne's new pup Adam! I just clicked back to this window and misread my last sentence as "try the apples!" -- wtf self?

My Saucy Minx challenge over on eljay does not have many members and even fewer sign ups, so far. I considered setting it up on ij, but I don't even know where to begin finding SGA fans on ij, and have rly only seen slashy Atlantis comms thus far. Which is lovely for the slashers, but unhelpful when my challenge is all about boobies. Anyway, am I missing some comms or what, Atlantisfolks actually on this flist?

P.S I heard a season five spoiler that makes me happy in my ladyplaces. I just thought you should all know that.

ETA: lol @ me, Ne made two ij comms for Atlantis the other night. whostheboss (John/Elizabeth) and mcsparky (Rodney/John/Elizabeth)...we have yet to actually do anything with them, ahahaha. But they are there as placeholders. Presumably they will have stuff in them sooner or later.

( Not bad for someone who only just got photoshop. )

GUESS WHO FINALLY GOT PHOTOSHOP, BITCHES.

>:D

posted tiny batch to iconparty and made a few for heavenly, for when she gets accepted to vinalhaven (which, if I haven't pimped it already, is a badass multifandom highschool/college/smalltown AU RPG).

( cut for FANART )

So. Pretend that this is way better than it is, and also that Sedge is shouting KOWABUNGA!!!!

blah blah UPDATING.

I just spent a zillion years uploading icons and keywording them with ridiculous lyrics, SO I might as well actually...use this journal ever. HELLO IF ANYONE'S READING THIS, MY ICONS ARE PRETTY.

Obligatory pimping: if you're looking for icons of people who are something other than white, check out iconparty, because it's badass. The icon makers are kaybird, nepants and layonmacduff (MUSEY DID I GET THAT RIGHT) and uhhhh they all rock, so if you don't use their icons, I'll come to your house and kick you.

So I thought of something I can use this journal for. SOMETIMES I WOULD JUST LIKE TO RANT.

Like now.

I like to say I don't feel anything about my dad any more. And when he's around, that's true. When he's around, I don't know what to say and I don't know how to react because nothing he says has any real impact any more. It's just later that I get angry and bitter and retarded because the whole "I don't feel anything" thing only works as long as he's actually in the room.

It's kind of weird.

In the grand scheme of things, you could probably say that he's not really that big a deal. He didn't physically abuse me in any way and I think he's only ever been angry with me the once, in my entire life. That probably has something to do with the fact he hasn't been a big part of my life at all. I didn't meet him until I was six, and only because I started getting confused about why other kids had dads and I didn't, and asked questions. So Mom went and found him, and I think, in retrospect, I'd rather have the questions than the facts.

'Cause the fact is he's useless. Contact isn't consistent. He makes promises that maybe he really does intend to keep, but he never keeps them. Okay, so we didn't go on a fun holiday and I didn't get to do that neat thing with the camera. Big deal. I would've liked it if, when I went into hospital for mental illness and he promised me he'd be there to see me, he'd shown up. That was important. That was a big deal.

Janice's wedding was Janice's wedding. It was about Janice. It wasn't about me and it sure as fuck wasn't about him. Why he felt the need to unload his childhood on me absolutely randomly is beyond me. I cried, partly because it was kind of horrifying and partly because I wanted him to show, for five fucking seconds, that he cared about me as much as he cared about himself. The next day, at the wedding, he told me I looked pretty and I refused to answer and tried to stomp on his foot. Don't recall how well that went. I was drunk at the time, charmingly enough.

My father has three kids. He's pretty much abandoned all of us, as far as I know. I don't know where my brother is or even how old he is, and my sister...has her own issues with Dad.

Ne told me, the other day, that it was going to be Father's Day in the states soon. Because she wanted to talk about awesome things we could do ICly, for various characters in various games.

My kneejerk reaction was an incredibly sarcastic "...fabulous".

I don't trust my dad. I don't like the guy.

But when I was six years old, I thought he would be perfect and just like in story books and I'd have a whole family and a family that wasn't occasionally fucking scary.

So for the next ten years after I met him, I believed every bullshit promise he made. Every single one. After every one he broke. I kept believing everything he said to me.

I just kind of hate him for killing the fantasy.

Not that I really need another journal to, you know, neglect shamelessly or anything, but, here I am, Dele on IJ. On livejournal I am "likecominghome" and on greatestjournal I am "kiwisinspace". I'm primarily on insanejournal for RP (voicesinmyhead + associated communities and gotham), and I can't think right now what I'm going to use this journal for, but if I think of something, I'll let y'all know.